The Minnesota Blogger Conference was this weekend.
I learned a lot, more about myself then about blogging though.
I have a feeling that I will be the lone voice on this, the only person that felt this way (or at least that will say anything).
I have long said that my blog is for me. I write what I want, how I want and with whatever content I feel fits me best.
I don’t blog about all the things going on in my life, some things are best left alone. But I do blog about what I am feeling, about certain things that affect me and my own person.
When I signed up for the blogger conference, I don’t know what I was expecting. A chance to see some friends, of course but beyond that I had no idea. Sitting through sessions, listening to others tell me their stories.
But instead, I felt off being there. I felt like I didn’t fit in, didn’t have a place to be when surrounded by all these bloggers. Some that I had heard of, and some that I had no clue.
So many people have been talking about “feeling so welcome”.
It could be my introvert side that came out in so many ways. I am not a “new” people person. I do great with people who I know, people I am comfortable with. But put me in a room with people who I don’t know, and don’t know me and I shut down.
I did that.
I didn’t introduce myself, only talked to those that I knew, or who I knew I would be meeting. And sometimes that didn’t even happen.
I felt out-of-place.
So getting a phone call was my great escape. I made my apologies and made an exit.
Now, don’t get me wrong. There were so many expectations that I had for Saturday. I wanted to listen to Heather speak, and hear Matt’s story in real life but my level of awkwardness and aloneness was just too powerful.
Jo was by my side for over an hour, trying to get my computer to connect to the wifi (didn’t work darn it) and she was wonderful, as were all my friends that I have “known” both IRL and URL for many many months. But it wasn’t enough.
I am not the type of person that can handle this type of event. I need the social aspect of it, the forming of bonds and the goal of a charity or mission to achieve.
Now I know, I am not a conference type of blogger. I am not a sit in a room and talk about why you blog, or how you blog type of blogger. And next year I know to stay home, and let someone else who REALLY knows that they are that type of blogger have my ticket.
BUT I will say that Missy and Arik did and AMAZING job with everything about this conference. The location was outstanding, even with the construction on the street below. The speakers that I did see were on top of their game, knew what they were talking about. And having so many bloggers in one spot is such a wonder! They came out of the woodwork for sure!
So while I am not that blogger, so many are and the response and respect for the day made it a huge success for the entire team that planned and coordinated the conference.
Next year I will gladly watch from the sidelines.